Chapter 379
This was the first time for Iris to be kissed, she was not sure what to do to match his aggressiveness. However, she was so desperate to get close to him, as she kissed him back clumsily and this made the Alpha tense up.
Cane groaned into her mouth, when he could feel her nails graze his neck, as she tried to hold onto him during their kiss. Iris tasted so sweet while screaming innocence, as she tried to figure out how to kiss him back.
His mate pressed her body against him and tangled her fingers in his hair and this made him lose it.
However, Cane stopped himself before he went too far and it was too late for him to backtrack. He pushed Iris away lightly and distanced himself, he needed to cool off before the heat got to him, once it did, it would be either him hurting himself, or hurting her and what they were doing was a close call…
Cane didn’t know what got into him when he kissed her. For someone like him, losing oneself in a heated moment, was mortifying, even so for himself.
After all, he couldn’t afford to make a reckless and impulsive decision, but he just did that with Iris and the more shocking revelation for him was; he didn’t despise it…
He used to hate someone else’s touch, let alone an intimate act such as a kiss, yet her touch and kiss were so different for him… it didn’t repulse him, but he couldn’t say the same about what Iris felt right now.
On the other hand, Iris looked flustered because all of a sudden, Cane pushed her away, but she couldn’t say anything, as she tried to calm down her breathing, taking a good grasp of what went down until a second ago.
They were kissing, there was no denying it, as Iris still could feel the taste of his cold lips against hers. Her lips were swollen, but when the realization hit her, she blushed profusely. She lowered her head, not wanting to look at Cane, yet the anger was still clear in her mind and heart. She couldn’t get rid of it and the more she tried, the more she agitated herself with her effort.
She wanted to scream in frustration, she wanted to be angry, despite knowing it was so wrong to vent out all of her negative emotions on her mate, her heart still felt constricted. She felt so overwhelmed with everything that was going on around her. Not to mention the sudden bomb Sofia dropped earlier, claiming she was pregnant with Cane’s baby and how the members of the Howling Wolf pack were overjoyed with the news as they welcomed this stranger with open arms. It made Iris feel so sick, worthless and angry.
That was the last straw for Iris.
For a moment, the silence was so deafening, even for Iris, who was used to it, as the only sound she could hear was the howling of the lycan and that one time, when she heard Cane call her name during her heat. She thought she must have mistaken it, that it was only in her mind.
“I don’t understand your anger,” Cane said, despite Iris not looking at him. “I don’t understand why you are angry at me. You need to tell me what you feel, so I can understand what is going on. I can’t understand you and it leaves me frustrated.”
And then another long moment of silence, as Iris kept her head low. She stared at her fingers, as if they were the most interesting things in her life right now, while her mind swirled around a thousand possibilities. All of her negative thoughts and memories haunted her right at this moment, though outwardly, she looked so placid and quiet, there was a storm brewing inside of her.
’Men carrying pain are storms and your mate is in so much pain.’ Redmond said those words once in the past and now she thought it applied to her as well. There was also this one time, he told her how Cane had changed her.
Cane did change her with or without him realizing it. It was so true. By involving herself in the storm that Cane had created. Iris was forced and demanded to change the way she saw her surroundings and faced the problems.
And she needed to keep changing in order to keep up with everything that was going on or would happen in the future.
But, she felt so stuck at this moment. She couldn’t get rid of this bitter feeling after hearing the news about Sofia and the feeling of unworthy and dirty, because of what Kellan and Alpha Gill had done to her. She was so broken, it was not only her back that was scarred, as what heinous acts they had done to her had scarred her mind so deeply.
Cane stared at her, trying to read what was going on in her pretty head, but it was hard to tell, because she acted nothing like her usual self.
Iris didn’t seem to repulse the kiss between them earlier, Cane was even able to see how she blushed, which meant his act didn’t trigger her trauma, something he was concerned about the most, as he didn’t want his recklessness to hurt her again like what happened before.
“She is pregnant. She is pregnant with your child,” Iris said in a mumbling voice after the silence stretched between them for longer than necessary.
Hearing that, Cane moved closer to her and put his finger under her chin to lift her head, so she could see what he was going to say.
“You know the baby is Redmond’s.”
Iris gritted her teeth. She wasn’t crying, but she looked so upset and agitated. “But, what all people think is that the baby is yours!” She looked Cane dead in the eyes. “She is carrying your child! People think she is pregnant with your child! What will you do?! The King gave you two years to have an heir and now this is your opportunity to claim the baby!”