Chapter 190
Neah
“Stop it!” I snap, staring at my belly. The twins were growing fast and had also taken to kicking each other or my bladder and it was driving me nuts.
Dane raises an eyebrow at me with a small smile as Mallory comes running towards us. I sigh, I had forgotten she was taking part in training.
She comes to a stop in front of us. Her eyes narrowed at my belly. “Is it wise for you to be training?”
“I’m not. This is the only way I can get out of the house!” I snap at her and she lowers her gaze.
Years I had spent trapped inside a house because of Cassandra and Trey. Going no further than the back garden to having almost complete freedom. And now, now I would do anything to feel the grass on my bare feet, to lie in the sun without being monitored every second of the day. But until Damien sends news, I wasn’t allowed out of Dane’s sight. The fake grass of the training ground will have to do.
I knew it was to protect me and the twins. I knew he was doing it to keep us safe, but all I wanted to do was break away, to not feel so…. trapped.
Dane knew, and he would talk to me in a reassuring tone, reminding me it was only temporary and for the best. Promising me that I could still do most things, as long as he could see me. But to me, doing the best thing meant losing a part of my sanity. If I even had any at this point.
But it wasn’t just about keeping me safe. It was to keep an eye on me, to make sure I don’t become the monster I feared.
“Where do you want me?” Mallory beams at Dane. I really wanted to wipe that smile off of her face. It felt fake and forced. And I bet behind closed doors she has an excellent resting bitch face. Though I was yet to see it, deep down, I could feel it was there.
Dane sends her over to a group of well trained guards. He had already told me he wanted to test her abilities. I questioned why, because I was living proof of her abilities. I had felt what she could do if she put her mind to it. And that was just after she had been turned. What was she like with years of training under her belt?
“It’s better to know what everyone is capable of. There may be a time when we need to use it or prepare for it.” Dane winks at me
I look up at him, but he keeps his crimson eyes focussed on the groups as they start to spar. Did he secretly not trust Mallory either?
Nyx mumbles and starts to talk. I tell her to shut up. It was easier not to have her weighing in with her own opinion and this way, I could focus on keeping the monster at bay.
I lower myself onto the grass, watching everyone fight. Training had been a no go for me since finding out I was pregnant. Though training had never been a concern when I was face to face with someone and fighting for my life. I had just shifted and destroyed them in seconds. Taking their heart, just like Salem did to Jess.
Was that a Rogue thing? Going for the heart? Surely that was just the obvious choice? But then again they play with their food. The heart wouldn’t be the first thing they went for.
It was just me in the moment. I never thought about my aim. My hand or rather my claws just went straight for it. Except for Roan, I tortured him.
I feel a smile creeping up my face and have to force it away when Dane clears his throat. He is staring at me with his crimson eyes. “You’ve been listening?” I whisper
“It’s pretty hard not too.” His tone is low and he squats down in front of me. “Mallory told you that you have to stop the dark thoughts seeping in.”