Chapter 23
Dear Kayla,
I had this cat when I was a kid. Orange tabby, skinny thing, hated everybody. Except me. That cat loved me. I loved him, too, though I didn’t know it until he got hit by a car. Before that, I thought OJ was a menace. (That was his name, OJ. After orange juice. Not very creative, I know, but I was eight.)
Once the cat died and he wasn’t around anymore, I realized how much I loved him. That stupid cat had been my best friend, but I only realized it in hindsight.
Funny thing, isn’t it, hindsight? It’s memory, but with new understanding tacked on, so that the past means something different than it did before.
And the only way to find that meaning is to look for it.
Look to the past.
Dig up those graves.
Examine the bones you find there.
I’ve been doing my fair share of that lately. I’ve got so much time on my hands in this place, thinking about the past has become the main way I spend my days.
You asked what I did to land myself here. The simple answer is that I loved someone too much.
You see, I learned a lesson from OJ’s death. I learned that love means nothing unless it’s acted upon. Love isn’t real without intent. It’s a verb. It isn’t passive.
But most of all, love means sacrifice.
Whatever love asks of you must be given, no matter the price.
And I’d gladly give what love asked of me a thousand times over. Even if I had to do it every day until the end of eternity, I’d slice open my own veins with a razor blade and happily bleed myself dry.
Dante
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